I had this notion back in May that I might stop drinking for a month, from June 11 through July 11, making my birthday, July 12, an illustrious return to form. This wasn’t so much for health reasons as it was a great impetus for daily blogging – ErinirE’s adventures on the wagon. As a side benefit, I’d save money, lose weight, and give my liver a much-needed respite from abuse. Clearly, this never happened. In fact, I’m drinking a PBR right now.

I also think about quitting smoking. I’m not the type to nic fit or whatever, I smoke mostly because I’m bored. Cigarettes are a great diversion from whatever you’re doing, be it an uninteresting conversation at a house party or a maddening excel spreadsheet at work. And in the car? I mean, there’s nothing to DO but smoke. A costly hobby to be sure, but, as they say, it’s better than crack.

Today I went to Starbucks. I’m totally cash-strapped, to the point where I’m asking whether or not this soda comes with free refills, but nevertheless I couldn’t bring myself to order something cheap. I wanted an earl grey tea latte, dammit, and even though it’s a dollar more expensive than iced coffee, an earl grey tea latte I did have. One could make the point that if I’m so broke I probably shouldn’t be going to Starbucks in the first place, to which I would say: point taken. But I REALLY WANTED that earl grey tea latte.

The point? I’m completely unable to do anything I don’t feel like doing. This generally isn’t a problem in a workplace sense, ’cause damn if I don’t love to work, but in every other sense it’s a huge hindrance. From my bad habits to my penchant for Target tank tops, I should absolutely be exercising a modicum of self-control… but hey, what can I say. I’m a hedonist. And honestly, I like it that way.